The life of a stay at home mom.

This week has been a really trying week for me as a mom. First starting off the weekend with the flu, then passing it to Derek. And then spencer getting it. How in world do you take care of a baby who needs a diaper change ever 20 minutes, or comfort him when he's coughing so hard he pukes, or wakes up multiple times.a night: when you feel like death. I had no energy and was puking myself, and how did I deal with it?? Lots of prayers to give me the strength. Putting my son first trying to make him as comfortable as he could as his little body was suffering. I did something that I never thought I could do! I think Heavenly father blessed me and Derek that we would get better really fast to take care of him. I HATE seeing my baby like this. I can't wait till these little teeth come through so that we can re adjust his schedule! I feel so blessed for all the help and support from friends and family during that time too! They helped with spency and helped me know what I should do! It's hard being a first time mom! ( talk about over reacting to everything)

We are finally on the uphill I think! It's been a good experience for us but let's be honest, none of us would be sad if it left quickly! Ha I've been trying to start on a goal I had a while ago to read my scriptures everyday. So far I've done good! Derek has helped me a lot with remembering or reading them to me if I didn't have the energy to. He's such an amazing guy. Don't know how I got so lucky. I feel like I'm one step closer to where I want to be. Next step, get back to the temple. It's been over 8 months since we last went. I can't wait! Not only will we have the amazing feeling back in our lives, but I get to share this experience with my family and friends that are going with us. Just overall a great thing that I need to be better about doing!

The last main thing on my mind right now... Having more kids. How do I know when the right time is?? If I wait till I'm ready then I may never be ready. If I wait for a convenient time then it might not ever come. I want a sweet tiny innocent baby in my arms to snuggle and love on. I see other babies and remember how it was. And yet when I see them I feel all the regret for not enjoying it like I should have. I want to be able to do it over to be better and more patient. But when? It may be months from now or years, just something that has been pressing on my mind. When I am privileged with another one, I know I'm going to do so many things differently! Its been fun seeing my baby nephew grow up. I can't wait to meet that baby in one month! I can't believe that I have made it this long without holding or even seeing him in person. I love him. I hope he knows that! So grateful for families. Especially that mine is eternal! Best feeling ever!