I always heard people say that they wouldn't change their life for anything once they had kids. That they have made so many sacrifices but they wouldn't take a single one back. Up until I had Spencer, I never knew what they meant. It takes a lot of sacrifices. I've been experiencing some of the blues lately, because I have given up my whole world for a little boy who doesn't hug me or snuggle me. For one that screams at me through many parts of the day. The little angel that demands food, drinks, snacks and diaper changes without even a smile or thank you. He expects me to put him above anything else I am doing. The simple tasks of feeding myself, showering, or going to the bathroom is out of the question now. If its not in his plans, it's not going to happen. And why do I continue to do all of these things for him?? Because I know by giving him the love he needs, he'll one day return the favor. Because when he smiles at me with those big blue eyes for those brief moments in the day i know that he is grateful. Because I would give my whole world to this little monster. The way that I treat him and teach him to treat others will shape his future. I am his main example for how he will one day treat his wife and family. No pressure right?!?
As difficult as spencer is, I wouldn't change anything. I'm one of the lucky few who gets to stay home with my kid/ future kids. I don't have to share that responsibility, because my husband is taking full responsibility for that portion. That probably means I should show him how grateful I am by keeping up with the house chores huh?? Yeah. I think that is something I need to be better about. I do some but why not try to be my ideal wonder woman? Each day is a new day. A new day to be a better me!
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