Another year already?!

It's been a year. A year since I went into labor with the boy who would forever change my life. I had no clue that it would take almost an entire day till I could meet him but I also definitely underestimated what was ahead. I can remember telling the doctors I just want him out! I'm ready to meet him. But was I?! Floods of emotions before we went to the hospital. Was I ready?Was it really happening? One of those "ready or not, here i come" moments. I wasn't sure what was going to happen but I knew that I was uncomfortable And that I needed to accept the fact that he was on his way into my life.

I can't believe he turns one tomorrow. Derek said that we should run into Spencer's room at 1:45 in the morning (when he was born) just to show him how it feels to be up at that time in the morning, a taste of what we had to go through. I told him he is more than welcome to do that but he would have to be the one to be up with him when spencer wouldn't go back to bed and that I would rather stay in bed. He's apparently still not over it. Haha spencer has been a miracle to us. The thing that has started roughing our edges a little. He makes us better every single day by simply being him! He tests us in ways I didn't think possible. He helps me with patience and has helped me learn to keep my cool about things that don't matter all that much. I have the privilege of being his mom and that's the best feeling out there! He's one lucky guy and he is going to make such a great big brother some day when the time comes! ( if we can get over this hitting biting stage, at least) ha but anyone that doesn't know spencer needs to. He is a blessing in so many ways.

And I know it's not his birthday quite yet, I just couldn't wait a day knowing that today is the day I found out he would come! Just a day left till we first got to set our eyes on him! A year! He has grown so much and learned so much in a year. He's the cutest little blonde hair blue eyes boy I know. Other than my adorable husband that is. :) this little guy is so friendly and goofy. He wants all the attention and wants to show off his walking, talking, waving. Etc! I love my little boy spencer with my whole heart and can't wait to celebrate his big day with him tomorrow! :) I love you spencer so so much!